All I need is you, Lord

It happened, about a month ago, during prayer that I came to the absolute realization that everything good in my life, God had provided through no merit of my own. That anything else I strive for is meaningless. This spurred me to live more dependant on Him. How easily I let myself believe that I'm capable of doing this small thing on my own; I don't need His help to do that.

What I've started to do is to pray for every little thing as it comes up and especially not to put off prayer untill a certain time. In the morning, I pray for a safe trip to work and for help with each task I'll face at work. Throughout the day I pray for help concentrating on my task (this is a real problem for me) and other such things. I pray for a safe trip home. I pray for whatever activity I'll be participating in that evening. I've found that since I've started this that I feel closer to Him than ever before; I've found that I hear Him more often. I also see my failings more clearly.

We've all heard that we should "pray without ceasing," but I never really understood. How easy it is to say a prayer in the morning then jump into our day on our own not to talk to God again untill we go to bed; how easy to let the troubles of the day distract us from the one who can help us through them. How easy it is to think "I should pray about this" and file it away for later, often never to be retrieved, when we can talk to Him any time, any place.

The second important piece, I think, is engaging in activity that serves as a constant reminder that I need His help. Many months ago I realized His calling for me to teach for Breakout, which is a Wednesday night ministry to children 2nd-5th grade. I am equipped with the knowledge and understanding to teach, but for a shy person like me that likes order and precise ("big") words I can think of few things further from my comfort zone. To survive I can only depend on His strength, His words, His calm. In fact, now I recall that it was my desperate prayer to whip me into shape for this service that brought about this revelation/revolution.